Friday, September 25, 2009

True or False?

4th sept. We went to one borneo to cancel our share phone line. At first, i felf disappointed and realized that our relationship has ended. I know this is the last time we went out and his purpose of asking me out is to cancel the line. My heart was very pain and hurt. I sat on his car just like one of his friends. We didn't talk much to each other also. Although i was very sad and can't accept this reality that we are not lover anymore but i still can stay tough and have no crying in front of him. After canceled the line, we went to Damai have dinner. On the way to Damai, i told him that he is not a good and responsible guy. When having problem just know how to escape but not try to solve it. Beside, i said he didn't care of my feeling and simply let me go. I hate him. This time he didn't stop me from saying about our relationship. Not like previous time, he tried to escape from this topic and keep in silence. A weird feeling comes to our relationship. In the restaurant, we shared a bowl of dessert and he helped me to finish my meal. That time we are just friends but the way he treated me is just like what he did previously. I can feel that he stil care of me and hasn't put down our relationship. The first thing came to mind is we still have chance. After the dinner, he asked whether i'm willing to accompany him to watch a movie in cp or not. I was very free that night cause just finished my accounting mid-term. We watched a ghost's movie. We just like lover, he holded my hands and hug me. We walked around the shopping mall. We also didn't know what we are doing and what is our relationship. It's really complicated. Finally, we have decided to continue our relationship. Go ahead and do what u think is right. Don't care about what other people talk about .

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

我们的爱过了就不再回来

我已经做了我应该做的事了,挽留也挽留了,是你不肯接受。有个朋友告诉我:“不要逼一个人做一件事,如果他愿意他会心甘情愿的为你做。” 他说的也对,我也了解。我不会逼你的,只会等你,虽然我知道机会渺茫,可是我还会默默地等你直到你找到一个女朋友。以后的事我也不敢想象,只要我能做到的都愿意为你做。
我不会再故意去找你了,不去烦你了,不会再问你为什么不回我的信息。这只让你觉得反感,我应该在你面前流下好的影像。我也不会让你看见我无助的样子。我不会恨你对我所做的一切,反而要谢谢你让我得到那么多的教训。看着今天的你,我终于领悟到爱情的转变,看见你无情的模样,似乎都把我们俩的感情忘得干干净净。曾经口口声声说爱我的人,当遇到问题却选择离开我,也没想过要和我坚持下去。我愿意辛苦又如何,你却不想。
可能在你心里我只是一个普通的女人,到处都可以找到,不值得为我去辛苦的人。我越来越不会哭了,让自己忙为了忘记你,这是你要的吗?一天比一天失望,也许你说得对再过几个月我的伤口就会慢慢复合,也许吧!我多么希望不曾认识你,这样也不会被你伤害。如果时间可以倒流,那时我就不会接受你的追求了。好傻的一个如果,不可能了,过了就过了,没得回头了。
还有一个朋友告诉我:“就算现在我们又能在一起又怎么样,谁知道有一天他又用同样的理由和你提出分手。那时的我更加放不下,更加伤心。” 说得也是,未来的事都不可靠,谁能知道未来的事呢?我只能恳求主引导我选择对的道路。